Hubby flew back home le. So happy for his mum, she sure wait for this big day for a long long time. Hope Hubby will use this 2 weeks to pay his filial to his mum. ^_^

Met Hubby to collect ticket buy presents and also gone to his cousin's house to pick up things to bring back to Nepal. Wonder if Hubby will read this entry only. Wanted to talk to him yesterday about Saturday and wanted to understand what happen to him too, but time don't permits as he really do no have time. He haven't pack his bag when he is meeting me.

Actually, when I see him yesterday, I really feel that I'm over-reacting. Wonder if he reads my blog will he jeer at me for thinking too much. Wonder if he will argue and don'f feel good about my entry. That entry just relates everything of my feeling at that time, don't intent to attack or hurt anyone. Yesterday, actually he wants to talk to me as well, but he needs to sleep and i'll be very guilty if he miss his flight. Thus, I decide to keep it down. Anyway he will read my blog even if he promise me he wont. See! I'm really Hubby's tummy worm. Don't really know that does Hubby know me well anot. He always forgot this and that don't think he will remember what I do and behave. Hur.

Feeling very dejected that he is leaving today, but its just for 2 weeks. At least I get to fetch him back from airport. Yeah!! Early in the morning, he already irritated me, forgot to pack the essence!!! Aiyo, I really don't know how blur can my Hubby be. That is a very important gift from your girlfriend to your mum. Haiz, anyway i win my 5kg of parcel cos of his forgetfulness. If he didn't bring a gift back to pacify me, then I'll think of a more severe sentence for him.

Today is the first day of alone, feel so weird that I don't need to msg him I finish lunch, anyway he will call me when he is there. Think he is already on his transit plane I hope. Today going to have a good sleep, eyes so puffy from all the crying and lack of sleep. Lucky my Hubby still love me. Back to work and back home for Auditioning, Yeah finally its workable, but don't have the mood to play few days ago.

Forgot to update my day yesterday. Slipped off my mind the moment I read Ling's entry.
Here goes the update-

8.45am

"He" drove to my house today to chauffeur me to school, even though "he" didn't have any classes.
Had my "Happy Meal" breakfast proudly prepared by "him".
Tastes wonderfully sweet, never get tired from the all the "Happy Meals" which "he" prepared for me.

9.30am

"He" walked me up to my lab venue. So sweet.

11.30am

"He" called me when I messaged "him", telling "him" that I'm done with my lab, 1 hour earlier than the expected time.
Kept me company via the mobile.

4.15pm

Received a message from "him".
Kept me from dozing off in the boring lecture.
Told me to hang in there, 4.30pm lesson end.
But my mobile battery died.
#$)*$!$#

4.35pm

Decided to use Raymond's phone to message "him".
But didn't know how to use Ray's mobile.
Asked Raymond to message "him" for me.

4.50pm
Ray told me "he" asked him to wake me up when I reach my train destination.
Extremely touched by his concern.

1.45am
Just hanged up the phone.
Was talking to "him". Love hearing his voice.
Vibrant with life, laughter and silly jokes we crack
Understanding each other's train of thoughts.

If I'm dreaming in this phase of life, I don't ever want to wake up. Just let me continue this fantasy. No one has ever drove down to my house to send me to school, made breakfast for me. I feel so... unreal. "He" is the first guy who made breakfast for me. "He" has been preparing breakfast and sending me home when I end school late for almost 2 months.

I don't want to wake up. Don't want to wake up from this life I'm having.

Dear Sis,

I understand perfectly how you feel. You felt alienated during the outing and you can't help feeling that way due to the circumstances you were in. You tried not to read too much into the closeness between RG and Sun. But the situation didn't permit you to do so.

The situation took a turn for the worse when both of you didn't want to open up to each other when he asked about the "black face". I can understand that you wanted to calm yourself down and rationalise your thoughts to prevent more escalating misunderstandings. So you told him that you wanted to cool yourself down. But RG just retorted back, that you'll have to speed up your "cooling off mode". I guess that's when you kept your mouth shut - i.e., you're pissed but you didn't want to make a scene. Maybe he didn't mean to hurt you on purpose, but you were hurt.

Getting drunk was the option you saw to get attention from him after all options failed at the end of the day. Can't blame you. If I were you, and YY was him, I don't think I could have handle the situation much better than you. I would have already went home by myself or hang out with my friends, and left YY alone with his group. I'm that heartless. Because I don't see the need for me to downplay myself like a lowly intelligent person next to him. I've my pride too.

I am not casting judgments on either of you. But all I know is that RG, you should not have walked away when my sis was drunk, no matter how much you hated her to be drunk. What if something bad were to happen to her when you're not around? Do you love her so much that you just dump her in the care of friends than caring her yourself? Are you able to handle the consequences hereafter? You can always tell her off after she's sober and you guys can thrash things out calmly. And whatever my sis does, she is constantly thinking of you.

Ling, I hope you're feeling better. Anything just gimme a call. Blogging is good way to vent out your feelings, but verbalising it is a better option. No matter how busy I am studying for my exams, I'm just a call away, and also 8 bus-stops away. =.='''

Love
Lil' Sis

You know sometimes it's a bless to have a blog. When you know that somethings is meant to be kept, but you still need to voice it out, there is always a place where you can come and cry about.

It have been a not very good weekend for me, emotional overide, listening to too many people, exposing to too many advise and comments. I'm a emotionally overthrown person. When things don't goes well, I have to come here to clear my thoughts. I only do it now as I'm always away from my computer all the time over the weekend.

I realise that whenever I'm at my most happiest moments, something will go wrong. I wonder why my happiness don't last long. Must be thinking that I'm talking crap right. Let me relate you my story and you may sort out my thoughts for me.

Friday, I just comment I'm bless, Hubby fetch me over to his house, he bought a Hoodie in Zara, think I already relate everything right. Let's come right to the point on Saturday.

Woke up at 5.30am, Hubby's alarm tone is really irritating, and its far away from bed. Roll around the bed to wake him up, he is a huge teddy bear to wake, but I have my ability. Ha, that's why I'm his baby. Dilly Dally, finally he woke up near 5.40am. Yeah!! I'll go back to sleep as I only need to wake up at 7am. Hubby have pass me his key to lock the gate, I'm so goggy I just nod my head to whatever he says.

Finally woke up at 7am, stand at the balconey and feel the cool air. It's so nice to stay up high, although his is only level 4. Walk around the bedroom, as I keep forgetting my things in my bed. Went down to drink one glass of refreshing water, yum yum. Bath out packed bag and realise Hubby forgot to take his phone! Neven mind his baby is here anyway, she can bring it to him then.

Reach Hotel, so sad didn't get to have my breakfast, forgot to buy cup noodle. Reach office very hungry very hungry, saw Emily Mum in MSN. Inform her that I'm hungry to death, and she offer to treat me at Trapizza. Hooray!! So Happy, wanted to tell Hubby but too bad his phone is with me. Anyway, I might be bumping into him. Went home to change and also brought a big bag, Hubby can help me to carry.

Finally reach Rasa, went back the poolside, as there is so many people I'm just human phobia. Take the lift up to Level 5, whao! It is as chaos as ever, saw my Hubby, he is serving guest and the queue is long. So suave, better move to Lobby Lounge to wait for Emily Mum. Saw alot of people walking here and there enquring about me. I starting to feel awkard already. Finally met Emily Mum, was walking behind her as she needs to tell Daddy she is leaving. Help there is alot of peeps, and I do not want to create commotion that I'm here. So when Emily bid her farewell, I follow her and down to Trapizza.

Had a nice lunch, thank you mummy, still have a long way to go! Ask mum whether have she inform Hubby that I'm here. She nod her head then I did not feel anything. Oh man, this is so draggy, then mum say let's go Palawan to see the Animal Show. Alright then, message Chicken that we are still in Sentosa. Finished the Animal Show, just nice Sun called, I inform her that we will go back to Rasa. Alright, let's go. Waited for awhile the stupid tram just don't come, lucky Emily got the connection, met her friend in one of the sentosa van and he give us a ride back to Rasa.

This is where my choked up starts, saw Chicken Hubby and Sun. Something is wrong, Hubby don't smile to me but give me a face. Aiya too stress about work already, went to him and ask them about work. Ok lor like that. Something is wrong, I'm a worm in my Hubby's tummy definitely he is wrong. Ask Sun whether he is angry she just shoke her head, alright then I'm too negative le. Delete Delete... Suddenly he turn to talk to Sun, he just brighten up like that, and when I see him, he just avoid my stare. I don't really feel good about it, feel very disappointed that I cannot share things with him. Emily comment in Chinese, how come he can talk and smile to Sun but nothing to you. Have the urge to cry!! Cannot, Hubby dote me the most! He is not like that, try my best. Still ignore me, alright then, let's take a seat and let him cool down. Went to sit down at the other side. They still continue their private joke and private topic. What happen to his nail, let's look at his keys, there is so many pair. HELP I'M DROWNING IN A SENSE OF LOST OF BELONGING!!!

Told Emily that I'll go Harbour Front the air here is so suffocating. Told them about it, and let them decide they want to follow. When we reach the bus bay to wait for bus, Sun told Hubby where is the nearest UOB, wanted to tell her, but I can't bear to see Hubby's stern face. I'll cry, Sun even tell him that she is lazy to come back here, but he say he will come here on her behalf. Alright then, I have nothing to say. Up the bus, he confronted to me what is wrong. I FEEL LEFT OUT HOW COME YOU ALL CAN TALK IGNORING MY PRESENCE!!! I can't say it out cause everyone will feel awkard.

All the way til we are waiting for Naveen, I do not really talk to them. Try my best to talk, but they just reply me coldly. I'm losing my confidence. When Hubby somewhat cool down and talk to me, I'm already not in me. Why he have to treat me this way. Went out to wait for Naveen so that Hubby can smoke, he confronted me infront of Sun.

Hubby: What's wrong with you, if you don't say it out no one can help you.
Me in mind: I'M BEEN LEFT OUT DUN TREAT ME LIKE THAT.
Me to Hubby: Give me sometime I'll cool down.
Hubby: If you want to cool down you just cool down fast if we are going to be like that, I' m going home its pointless to go out together when no one is talking.
Me in mind: YOU ARE THE ONE WHO IGNORE ME WHY MUST I BE THE ONE ENTERTAINING EVERYONE DO I LOOK LIKE A CLOWN???
Me to Hubby: Just give me sometime I'll cool down.
Hubby: If you are angry with me fine, but why must you be angry with sun, how can you not talk to her, do you know she don't want to come with us, I ask her to come anyhow.
Me in Mind: SUN SUN SUN!! HOW COME EVERYTHING IS SUN. HOW COME YOU CARE ABOUT HER SO MUCH!! YOU DIN'T EVEN KNOW YOU IGNORE ME?!? AM I JUST SO LITTLE TO YOU!! YES I'M JEALOUS YOU ARE SO CARING AND PUT HER IN PRIORITY. HOW MUCH LIMIT DO YOU WANT TO STRECTH ME!!!
Me to Hubby: *Silence*

Here comes Naveen and Emily, they sense that something is wrong. Right I cannot let Hubby feel that I cannot make it. Trying to add into topic, how come everyone is blending with each other so well, they just do not want me to be in the group? Went to Vivo and along the way I hold Hubby's hand. He did not hold my hand back. WHY IS HE DOING THIS TO ME... HELP!! I'M BLEEDING... I still hold on to it no matter what as I said I'll cool down. I won't let him have the chance to say me. Went to Swensens, long queue, we left the boys there to wait for our turn and we went shopping. I feel that Sun is not very happy with me, but why must she choose to entertain Hubby and just answer me blantly? Trying to find topic, help I'm franctic!! Told her, tomorrow is Ying Ying's bday let's go together, if you want go there yourself la, anyway her party starts at 1pm.

My heart is in millions of pieces. What Happen, how come i do not know anyone at all, why everyone is not the same, today is not April Fool's Day. DON TREAT ME LIKE THAT!! I CAN'T TAKE IT!! PLEASE DUN TREAT ME LIKE THAT I'M ALREADY TRYING!!!

Adeline called, she says she's bored in the train, talk to her about her work and stuff lucky she rescue me, I do not know what to do anymore. I keep pushing her to come, not telling her what is going on. Talk about Emily, What happen the last week. Alright tested that Adeline is normal. Thank god I wont be alone.

Went back to find them in Swensen, the same thing happen, the tension is so strong I want to go home now. I don't want to stay here to torture. Awkard Awkard, push away push away, don't doubt my friends and close one, hold my Hubby's leg, letting him know I'm ok. Trying very hard to bring back Sun, told her let's share food. Adeline came, let's joke and party. Things are still ok, didn't really eat much as I had a late lunch. I'm actually quite particular that Sun and Hubby share the same hobbies. They like milk shake and they like to share their food. Somewhat, I just like this kind of people, it is conincidence.

When we are out and walking round the mall to travel to Clarke Quay as we will have our chill out session there. Trying very hard not to left out Sun and Hubby, very difficult task. Suddenly, Vivien voice out in Chinese, what happen between Rohit and you? HUH!! THAT'S TOO OBVIOUS LA... Don't frightened me please!! Din't really say much just told her its ok and change topic. I realise that Hubby is very worried that Sun is being left out, so he is trying his best to talk to her as well. Trying hard to believe that he is doing this out of goodwill, I really think so!!

Reach Clarke Quay, Hubby still talking to Sun, its nothing one of their private topic about OCBC. Suddenly, Adeline made a very causual remarks that creeps me so much. Rohit have a better lingo with Sun compare to you.WHY!!! WHY MUST IT BE THIS... I realise this is not really what I really want. I don't want to think too much, everyone is reminding me the same thing. Adeline did advise me, and I realise this scenario is so so deja-vu, I've becoming like Yetty and Sun have becoming Me. This is so so great!!

Reach China One, went up and have it cosy, Adeline Vivien and I trying to revive the mood. I don't know is it that the toopic is alien or they just don't want to talk. She just look at her TV on her direction so is Hubby. I'm lost, I know that after tonight it won't be the same. I don't like to act, why do you want me to do all this. I'm trying and I don't get the credit. I'm hurt I'm very hurt. I'm very very hurt. When you realise that someone is alone, the other one by your side is even more alone to see your ignorant to her and see you so worried about the other her.

Actually I know deep down inside this is not it seems to be, there is some misunderstanding. ANYWAY WHAT THE FUCK, EVEN I'M ALONE I'M IN THE WRONG, I LET OUT MY FRUSTRATION I ALSO WRONG. SO JUST LET ME BE WRONG, I'M THE ONE WHO GIVE YOU ONE FUCK UP FACE. I'M THE ONE WHO IGNORE BOTH OF YOU. I'M THE ONE THAT IS CRAZY PETTY AND UNREASONABLE.

Adeline is worried about me and keep asking me to go toilet to cry it out. I realise that I have no one. I realise that I suddenly have no one. From way before, Hubby is already so caring to his house mate. I remember once he said to me "WHY MUST YOU GIVE MORNING CALL TO MURUGAN... WHERE IS HIS WIFE... WHERE IS THE OPERATOR... I JUST DUN LIKE IT WHEN MY GF HAVE TO TAKE OTHER PEOPLE OTHER THEN ME". We have switch role. That's for sure, I always thought that Hubby caring Sun cause she is my best friend. Still maybe he can only concentrate one thing at the time. If he cares about me and Sun things might not be the same. He will worried that Sun went out whole day on her off day don't know what she is up to. He will worried that Sun don't always eat, maybe she will die in her room. He will worried that she worked long hours and will get sick again. Any way it's them who made the mood so weird. I'm trying so hard I already reach the stage of devastation.

I'm trying to be a strong girl. When I'm having dirrea, I didn't get any caring msg from him. He just update me with his life and he only ask about my dirrea when I'm having it for like 1 week. Okay, I admit I'm jealous, I'm really very jealous. I'm trying not to be like Yetty, even if I need attention and support from Hubby sometimes, I wont say it out. Maybe I always bottled up and he didn't realise. I can't blame him for being ignorant to me feelings, as he feels that I will understand him better than everyone, he will feel that I can tolerate everything, but what about me, how much have he know me. It is really so contradicting. You need him to understand but you don't want to fight. I'm still a girl, vulnerable at times. I have use up all my might to tolerate Yetty and you, what more strength have I left to tolerate another one. I don't want to admit the ugly me so self fish and petty. This will make me more away from Hubby. What can I do this happen too often and with everyone telling me, this is already not that I think too much with other people have the same sentiments as me. Then hate to admit it there is soemthing wrong with it.

Finally the brillant Adeline came up with the genius game that involves everyone, played awhile and at least it neutral the ambience abit. Soon, it died down again. Reason that I drink, AIYA FUCK LA... I TRY SO HARD FOR SO MANY HOURS IF NO ONE APPRECIATE JUST LET ME BE ME LA...

Drank half a jug of Vodka lime and half a glass of Corona Extra, I admit I'm not a good drinker. The custom ending, I'm drunk. No one realise, its very unbelievable that no one realise. Adeline is always by my side, when I regret and want to find my Hubby, guess what happen when he realise that I'm drunk. He walked away.

I'm lost!! Really Lost!! Adeline have reach her limit as well, drag me to the toilet to let my heart cry it all out. So what I have blotted eyes, I'm drunk it's normal. He have unconciously hurt me so much, I did not expect such reaction. I wanted to disappear into thin air. I wanted to disappear.

Adeline drag me back to the new club that we went. 1 Night stand, Melvyn is there, met us up there. Adeline wants me to dance away my drunkness so that I'll be abit more sober. Dance and Dance, I just don't have the strength. Went back to look for Hubby, I really wanted to try one last time. I'm suffocating and no strength to struggle it is too long hours for me. Melvyn and him walk out again of the club. I'm devastating, why I need to entertain so many people when I'm wounded all over. Is it me, have I really change what I am suppose to be that's why people are treating me like this. Human are just complicated. I even try very hard to walk straight. Man this is tiring.

Went back with Hubby and Sun, one comforting credit that he award me for trying so hard. At least he lend me his shoulder, and send me back to my door step. Right I do not know what to say. I do not know how to judge, this is out of sympathy, guilt, or no longer angry I do not know. I'm too pain to think about it. Physically and mentally strained.

Called Melvyn and talk it out, suprisingly he understand how I feel. That means something is very wrong right. He did told me the underline of everything. Apparently, Hubby is angry cause he didn't know that I'm at Rasa and I didn't go find him. To add on to his anger, he feels that I too ignore Sun and give her attitude. To top it off, I'm drunk at the end of the day. He did told me before that he dont like me to be drunk cause I'm not me. Melvyn said he will talk to Rohit, I'm too tired to think about it and just let him do it. Surprisingly, Hubby listens to him and he only argue that He and Sun is impossible.

Seriously, after that night, I do not know what is our relationship now to the better or the worse. How he sees me now? Yesterday didn't meet him as he wanted to meet me today, thus he will try to finish everything yesterday and before I knock off so that he can have the rest of the time with me. He is flying tomorrow just to inform others that are clueless.

Poor Ying Ying, I'm sorry that I cannot turn up on your birthday. Apparently, Sun did not turn up as well. I do not know how to talk to her again, something is wrong and I feel that I have lost her. I don't dare to ask her to attend together as the previous day she dont have this intention. To top it off, I feel that she feels that I don't deserved it. Ying Ying, I'll make it up to you ya.

Had a serious hangover and cry the whole day, Naveen is very worried, Emily is very worried, Adeline is very worried, Vivien is very worried, Melvyn is very worried, Rohit?? Sun?? I know no one is in the wrong. Maybe I'm really oversensitive and crazy. Maybe I just get carried away from the comments and words. However, this is really what I feel right now.

I dun know whether have I'm self center and put myself down, but the feeling that I feel now it sucks. Even now when I'm relating and filling up the details, I'm filling my eyes with tears as well. Oh my god, I'm such a mess.

Just finished chatting with Cla over msn. She told me she may have her plans change. Will keep me updated of her return back home. I'm so excited that she'll be back! We even planned to have a sleepover at her house when she's back. All the updates, gossips and sisterly chats. SO EXCITING!

Ling, don't say I never inform you about the sleepover. I PUBLISH on the blog for you to read. NEED TO BOLD? =P *please keep yourself free*

It's been such a long time since Cla and I hanged out over at her house till late in the night. All the stupid stuffs we talk about, friends, personal views, relationships, guys...

Wonder if she met any *red rambutans* over there. Buy 1 get 1 free? Then can give to Ling, or maybe Lay Geok. *snigger*

Aisaretai aisaretai bakari

I feel like a walking dictionary of integrated electronics. Damn... This semester modules are really killing me softly with their circuitry.

I'm so bloody pissed with my dad. He's such a MCP - male chauvinistic pig. I can't tolerate the way he talks to me, especially to my mom. He thinks he's right in everything. Talks big only. Always bully my mom. When I retort him back, he always say, "Ya la, cannot win your bullet speed mouth. Raise you for 22 years, this is the way you treat me. Don't know if you'll take care of me in the future anot." #@$*_#)&$!# HEY!!! SINCE WHEN WAS WOMEN NOT ALLOWED TO SPEAK!?

I asked my mom why she still could tolerate his behaviour towards her. Guess what she says?

"I am easily bullied."

ARGH!!!! WHY?!?!?!

My philosophy: Be the bully, never the bullied.
DOWN WITH MALE CHAUVINISM!!!

*can't wait for the day where ALL male are the subordinates of women* 3

NB: Typed in red on purpose.

You know i decided to have my name on each and every blog i write as a title, so that peeps will stop complaining that it is so confusing to have 2 bloggers in a blog. Lynn is just so brilliant sometimes, can't help it but to feel proud.

Didn't blog yesterday cause I'm at my second home. Come on, close one should know where is my second home. Had pack a very huge bag yesterday, cause need to pass Hubby the chicken essence for his mom, and also a few cans of drinks that I bought from Daiso. Seriously, yesterday my bag is damn heavy, no joke. It feels like I'm carrying someone round my size on one of my shoulder. Lucky, I'm in the office for the solid 8 hours.

Met up with Hubby, Sun and Melvyn. Til now, I still not sure why Hubby wants to ask Melvyn and Sun along as his main motive is to buy hoodie. Hmm, *scratch head* let's move on, after few hours of walking around, Hubby finally bought his Hoodie in Zara!! Hooray!! Baby very hungry let's go for dinner. Stop at the junction outside wheelock, damn lost of where to dine. Finally something in Shawhouse keep calling me, and it just came out, I want to eat Pepper Lunch!! Very good, no one is againts it, so here we go. Had Hubby's order wrong, so guilty, but I remember I order it correct, I just forgot to check the bill that's all. Hubby I'm sorry.

Went into the mart under Shaw House with Sun, bought a few snacks and she is so thrill about it. Like what Adeline says, Sun is so jaded. Meaning of Jaded - 精疲力靖. So cool right I can write chinese, I set my home PC to Chinese languauge so I can have my Chinese words on my blog as well.

Went home with Hubby and Sun, saw House of Wax, comment of that movie, can we have the director hang. This is a very gruesome movie. It is nothing but brutal. The twins are so poor thing, the victims are even more poor thing. Conclusion, Paris Hilton can't act!! The only thing I can comment about her acting is seductive. Today, Hubby forgot to bring his phone and he pass his keys to me as well to lock the gate. Hoho, feel like a housewife bringing all this for her husband. Ha! Dream on...

Today we will have a gathering before Hubby left. Since everyone is free, so excited, Mummy Emily even offer to treat me pasta at Trapizza! Just drowning in the pool of bliss and love by everyone. Daddy boss left for her travel fair, miss her already!! Faster come back. Mummy Alicia is very stress up as she needs to cover Daddy boss, she even ask daddy how much responsibility I can shoulder. Oh man, I don't like the sound of it. I have this very strong feeling, I'm gonna get it anyhow.

Adeline just invite me to blog in her blog, people just admire my inspirtation in writing. That's why Hubby is hook by me as I can write veyr sentimental love letters, just kidding. Well, her blog is restricted to females and selective as she have lock her blog. I'll be covering the controversial issue in the blog, as it is a selective girls blog, I can write things that are very absurd.

Alright end of my entry angels, I'm off to finish my work and miss my Hubby...

Today was a hectic day than usual. Have packed 30 hard copies, 60 CD roms, 60 Corporate Gifts. Let me make a few speech for the involvement of the following creditable staffs. First of all, let's give a round of appluase to Ms Daddy, she taught an idiot how to gift wrap today. Ms Jacqueline, thank you for rushing the E-brochure for me, if not I need to bang the wall til the whole Gallery Hotel collapse. Mr Xiao P, thank you for burning the 60 copies of CDs, you are the best!! Ms Da Jie, thank you for helping us to wrap some of the gifts and save some food for us, if not I can lie flat and starts counting stars. Ms GF, thank you for inventing the other way of wrapping and help to expedite on the process.

All and all it is team work that it made it work. See!! I didn't claim all the credit, I did share it among. Tomorrow have to learn to do Pegasus report!!! My workload is piling, but it is trust that exist to make my workload increase. Daddy trust me to do her end of month report. Thus for this month, I'm damn tight up, 3 reports all together for my Finance Controller. 5th of November is definitely a no no from what I forsee. However, I'm trying to be supergal, but I have a very strong feeling I can do it.

Finally, met Julie after 10 years. This girl is so upside down. How can you forget me after you have Alvin!! I didn't forget you when I got Hubby. So our relationship is so surface, that's it you have to contribute 90% to Jo's present and 10% goes to my contribution. Ha!! Just kidding you petty girl. Can imagine that I have a msg from you scolding me. Bleah!! I can't help it you are just so good to pull. No pun intended!!

Feel guilty that I forgot to handover the welcome letter to the Front Desk!! Hide it aside, hope tomorrow I can dispose it without anyone realizing it.

Had a call from Hubby, he invite me to his house for stayover. Am thrill about the idea as its been awhile since I went over. Hmm, actually am very guilty that I still write my blog so direct even if he is reading. I'm not sure that is it due to my blog that he ask me over or he wants to spend time with me as he is flying soon. Whatever reason it is, I'm happy.

Hubby had booked his ticket, will be flying either Tuesday or Wednesday, will not be sending him as he don't want me to. GF sorry can't have breakfast in Changi, still can meet early for breakfast thou. Alright I got dark eyes circle have to sleep early.

Am boring now, having problems with Audition. Can't play it today, just got licensin to Level 9. I'm coming in aggressive!!

Hate myself today actually, realise that Hubby is really going soon as he is buying his ticket today after Chiku return him his money. Actually, its just two weeks, nothing to feel bad. His mum haven't seen him for few years! Still, the more i'm trying to phsycho myself, the more I feel lonely. Anyway, I should be getting over it soon I think.

Daddy is going off to Stockholm too. She wants me to do 60 CDs, 30 red corporate gifts, 30 brown corporate gifts and 30 thick hard copy of our hotel. Everyone is leaving, I keep hearing everyone is leaving. Sun is leaving for Hong Kong, Ying Ying is leaving for Australia. How come everyone is leaving.

Today is a whiny day for me, everyone is leaving, everyone is busy, everyone is having exams, everyone is busy with gatherings, everyone is tightup with appointments, everyone already have something plan, but how come I'm now involved in anything. Anything of the above includes me. Oh My God, I feel so paranoid now, will go stuff my head in my blanket now.

To "him",

Bored from studying. Leaving for school soon. See you later in a few hours time!
=)

Lots of love,
Your Highness.

Hahahaaaaaaaaa.... =P

Just came back from my KTV Session with my GF Miss Wong. Had a very soulful session with her, talk alot and understand each other alot, we are more dear with each other now. Sometimes I feel that I have gone through the worse, but never did I expect that someone had a more bitter past. I'll try my best to embrace her with all my might. This is what aquarius have to do for each other.

Wake up round 10am, waited for Hubby to call but in the end realise that he is working afternoon shift. I remember that he told me that he is working 12noon. All this are not important actually, at least he is not late for work. Gave him morning call at 11.30 as I went to sleep and woke up at that time. Realise that he is already getting ready to leave the house. Maybe its the morning syndrome, I'm not very happy that he did not msg me that he woke up. Anyway, I'm a very magnitute person, I forgot that incident after i sat down for me KFC meal. Yeah, went to KFC opp my house for breakfast cum lunch.

Went to Vivo City after that, and was still having the attack from seeing so many head. I'm just not good with that. Head down straight to Kbox at Chinatown for singing session. It is the first time that I heard my GF sing. Very nice wor who complaint I box who ok.

Comments about the whole activities, its been awhile since I had someone with me staying over. Like her company so much, as Hubby and me do not meet up often as well, we can only meet on weekends and he needs time for himself also. Just love the overnight thing, and sharing everything in the blanket, our dark secrets and our embarass moments.

Do not know whether my Hubby see this on time, I do miss your accompany as we always have less than 10 hours together a week and you are leaving soon. You are really leaving soon, hope you really can spare sometimes for me and don't be so uptight with your life without me.

Alright, I feel better now, ^_^, so nice to have a blog to write my feelings. Hubby you can ignore the previous paragraph, I can manage myself just need a space to complaint. You know the more I write, the more I feel that my entry are all so contradicting. I'm just writing somethings to corner myself.

Had read my Sister Yu's entry, I realise one thing in this blog there are two girls who have gone crazy in love. My brother challenge me for Audition, gotta go play my game and awaits my Hubby's phone call. Good night angel, see no evil!!!

I want you in my life
so much more then anyone else
I want us to be together
together forever
I want to be loved
for who I am not for who you want me to be
I want your love
no one else's
I want to feel your touch
soft in gentle like no other
I want to hear your voice
so calming in fear free
I want to hear you say you love me more then anything
I want your lips to kiss me
for the very first time
I want to walk with you
hand in hand
I want your arms around me
so I feel safe in protected
I want you to hold me
just cause you can
I want you to hold me even more
when I cry
I want your arms around my waist
so they know that im yours
I want you to be there
when I need you most
I want to be able to trust you
so you keep my secrets deep inside
I want you to love me
for whats on the inside not the out
I want you to tell the truth
no matter how much it hurts
I want you to say your sorry
when you do somthing wrong
I want to be with you
just you in me
I want your hand to touch my face
to dry up my tears
I want you to hold me
just cause you love me
I want to hang out with you
even on school nights
I dont want this relantionship to end...

Birthdate: 5th

Your life

Although you are on the quiet side, but you enjoy excitement and changes. Routine is something you cannot stand. Because of your extreme confidence, you hardly ask others for opinion. You believe in leading your own life, and you have got the gift in doing so.

Your Love

Nothing can stop you from making progress in your love life. Once you are in love, you feel the ownership of your lover. A third party can only makes your jealousy becomes worse.

Birthdate: 10th

Your Life

You are very capable. If you are a woman, you have high chance to be a renowned workingwoman. If you are a man, your path to fame and honor is near. As an innovator, you are not a good follower. You are good in implementing your imagination and share it with others. You are always well dressed.

Your Love

You often lose your love ones from being too jealous. You always feel like you own the person you fall in love with and that often blows your relationship.

Conculsion

BS!!!!

Boonie had just inform me that he will pass his wedding card to Julie, so that she can pass to me when she sees me. Everyone is getting married, one by one. This means that I have more and more red packet to collect. Actually ask Hubby to accompany me to the wedding, but he don't like to attend such functions, thus, I'm alone to face everyone. Hope everyone don't bring their partners along, if not I'm really alone.

Stay at home the whole day to jam up my Audition, currently at Level 8 going to up one level soon. Yeah!! Yesterday was a hell day for Hubby, didn't receive any sms from him the whole day. So terrible right, its 250+++ check in and out. Heavy turnover, have to salute them for the hardwork man. Hmm, feel quite guilty that I left them for easier life than staying back to face the war everyday. Hope Hubby will open up alittle bit more to me althought he is like that. Just don't want to be left out from his life, hope to participate in his life.

Tomorrow is another holiday for us, its Hari Raya Puasa. Evelyn is coming over to my house for sleepover party. So glad that she is here, will be staying with me for 2 nights, Hubby don't jealous ya.

Recently, I feel very productive at work. Trying to be very busy to un entertain my step sister. Trying to take over most of the phone calls and work for managers that are not in. Please award me for the most Shit work coordinator please. Today is another drama, she really reminds me alot of my lifetime achievement oscar award winner back in Rasa man. She came in after sales call, complaint to me that she is having a headach. Then she ask me to look for oilment on her behalf, and she gave me the sick face, definitely state that she is in no condition to look for one. Walk around and shouting for oilment and borrow it from Ms Chua, then I try my best to act real busy having phone calls after phone calls didn't even want to type things on my com. Drama 2 she say she still feel sick, ask me if her face is white. To be truthful, her face is very normal, but to stop her nagging, I just agree with every single word she says. She wants me to look for plump for her, fat hope babe, I act deaf and Alfred's the one who got the shot. Poor Alfred went to help her find plum.

Its one week away from Hubby's departure. Don't know if he is feeling the same thing as me, or I'm the emotional freak that is here being tempremental?? Whatever it is, as long as he is safely back I'm happy. Right back to work boss is pacing back and forth in front of me. Hmm today he is very good to me thou. Must be something up his sleeves. Ha..

So nice to see the clip made by YY for Sister Yu. I'm glad that Sister Yu have walk out of her depression, feel so guilty that I can't be there. I know that she wont mind but I still don't feel good.

Had ask my Coolie Mr Ghale to meet me on Friday supposely to carry my heavy stuff. However, there is no more stock at The Harbour Stationery for my 100 pieces of CDs. The Sales man even recommend me to another place, he made alot of negative remarks about the shops even Hubby finds it too much. Friday was a fuitless shopping, can't find anything I need. If I'm not able to find it, I'll need to rush my hell out as my daddy is leaving this Friday. I have tons of gifts to wrap and I have tons of CD casing to do!!! How I use I have Doremon to solve my problems.

Wake up early on Saturday, not really very early round 11 plus. Roll around on my bed, roll around on my sofa, then roll around on my mum's bed. Had my breakfast then took shower and out for my on the mission shopping. Went to Concourse which is just beside Parkroyal Hotel. Go round and round for my nice nice gift wrapper. I thought this is going to be a waste trip again til I reach the last shop, I saw what I want!!! $1.00 per peice what can I say, its cheap. Bought 10 peices of the silver gift wrapper and happy head down to Vivo to meet my little ong sister.

Took 100 there, had a major jam at the junction right infront of the turn to Sentosa. How long was I jam there? Around half and hour I think, I nearly puke in the bus with all the accelaration and braking. It keeps jerking!!! Reach there on time but Sister ong is still on the way, was having headach as it really creeps mi out to see so many heads around me. Finally I hide at the MRT station to wait for Ms Ong grand arrival.

After we met, we went round Vivo City. I feel good meeting Adeline, we shared our problems all over the shopping mall. From Long John Silver, to Starbucks, to the opening outside the mall. The place is awesomely huge!! Hope that she can get over her problems soon as it is very easily said then done. Walk around the mall and feel very sick of walking there with all the heads surrounding us. Suddenly we came up with a brillant idea. Rasa Sentosa!!!

Went over to wait for the Harbour Front bus, it didn't come on time think of the jam, went to the rest room and back for the next bus. Had a slight jam still, but not as bad as the one in the afternoon. Had a call from Hubby, he is on the way to beaufort to borrow the baby cot. Seriously, I feel that the management should give credit to Hubby, Naveen and Sun. Its not that they are my close ones, thus biaise. Its because they are good that's why they are the ones. Hmm, should crack my brain one day to write a very long compliment letter to the three of them, especially Hubby and Naveen. They need a rise to acknowledge their hard work. They know more and are more flexible in different situation. Rasa are fortunate to have them.

Its only 3 months after I resign, and everything change. They change the entrace, have a big boundary with the big Rasa Sentosa logo. They open up the carpark space so that the guest do not need to drive pass the loading bay. They made a proper pathway for guest to reach the lobby safely. They have also a weird looking frog bin with the cigerette bud stucking on their nose. Reach the lobby, saw Sham and Andy at the concerige, Chiku and Corrine at the reception. Walk round the lobby, nothing change much, but Adeline do find it more proper as a hotel. Went to the back office. It is much spacious and organize. Saw Benny Wong, still as busy as ever, Guddy very shag look darker and paler. While talking to Benny, Hubby came back with Foldable Baby cot. They had all change uniform. Althought the print is very disgusting, but the material is good that can see the body streamline. At least for Hubby no one can say he have a tummy, and he do not need to keep explaining to people it is the uniform. Haha!! Althought everyone look smarter, Naveen's uniform don't really suites him. He look oversize in the uniform. It looks like it is going to burst if he add one more Vege!! Haha, bring back alot of remiscence for Adeline and me. Well, it is a very import part of my life. ^_^

Went to Trapizza and had free drinks from Uncle Samuel and Ghanny!! You rox guys. Mr BB is there as well, to top it off with the most bizzarre things, he remember us. Came over to shake hands and chit chat abit. Hmm, Simone is not there to joke around. Went off after an hour drink.
Waited for Hubby and we took the 9pm bus out. It is somewhat a fruitful experience. Hmm Rasa peep is definitely the most hip and friendly and helpful peep around. This is the boot camp that I learn alot and remember alot.

Even if the sun refused to shine
Even if we lived in different times
Even if the ocean left the sea
There would still be you and me

Ever since the start of time
You've had my love (oh yeah)
Even before i knewyour name
I knew your heart (oh girl)
In the dark of the darkest night
I can see your face (yeah)
I always knew from the very start
I would find a way

Even if the sun refused to shine
Even if we lived in differrent times
Even if the ocean left the sea
There would still be you and me

Even if the world would disappear
Even if the clouds would shed no tears
Even if tonite was juz a dream
There would still be you and me

You've always been there and you'll always will be
The only one (oh yeah)
Until forever you hold me girl (until forever)
I'll never know (ohh..)
In the cold of a winter's chill
I'll be there tomorrow (oh'll)
Oh girl, and here you are with me for all of time
No matter what

Even if the sun refused to shine
Even if we lived in differrent times
Even if the ocean left the sea
There would still be you and me

Two hearts that belong together
From the very start
One love, now and forever
Nothing can tear us apart

Even if the sun refused to shine
Even if we lived in differrent times
Even if the ocean left the sea
There would still be you and me

Even if the sun refused to shine
Even if we lived in differrent times
Even if the ocean left the sea
There would still be you and me

Met up with Jessie, Ada and one lady that works in Brunei. It have been a year since I join the gathering. Initially when I just join Rasa I did went out with them. However, eversince I'm tight up with the work and also night shift, I practically can't make it for their gathering.

Jessie is still the same, as pretty as usual, she already hitting her fifties but she still have that young look. It is in her genes I suppose, as she don't like to walk here and there. She is still the same old her happy go lucky and wont fall cause of small mishap. Wish I'm like her brave, fierce and strong.

Went home late @ 11.30pm took cab home and went to bed after shower. Didn't touch my game for awhile, still stuck at level 7. Will strive hard for the licensin!!! I want to up my level!! I can do it!!

Have beautify my work desk with cute icon. I have place the cute dog's handphone holder from Dawn. Have collected some postcards from Zenden to beautify my partition. I have already printed the A4 size of me and my gf to stick it on the pillar next to my desk. Still my table is still empty. Wanted to place a photo of Hubby and me at the corner to fill up some space. Msg him about it and he agreed right away. So Sweet for my hubby to agree.

Realise that Hubby do read my blog, so next time I have to complaint more about him. Ha! Can't do that, so mean! I'll still write my blog as per normal. Oh about my entry a few days ago in regards to Pieces man, it is very accurate according to him. Went back to read it and try to understand him more. Adeline do comment that it is accurate as well for Aries woman, but why they did not understudy Aquerius well? Well, I do believe that Aquarius woman are all different in character and all as all Aquarius are weirdo. It will take sometimes to understand an Aquarius. So the Zodiac may only do on one species of Aquarius only.

Will be meeting Hubby later, need to travel to Harbour Front to buy the colourful CD Casing. I'll need to source for the gift wrapper as well, if I can't find it, Adeline have to accompany me tomorrow to Concourse to buy it. Tomorrow's KTV Session is canceled. So disappointed. Will meet up Julie for the session I suppose. Hubby have postphone the session til next week. Haiz, so fast he is leaving soon it is round a week away. Ignore me for 2 weeks guys, I think I need to hide in my cave to Level up to Intermediate Level.

Alright, John ask me for fruits, gotta go enjoy my high tea!! Will be back to blog on Monday.

Finally there's something good to report. Just been notified by my school that I've been selected a seat in my Industrial Attachment interviewing company - Institute of Microelectronics.

Woot! I'm grinning from ear to ear. Even daddy also say, "no more black face liao ar?"
Haiyooo!!! Black face coz facing the exam stress mah... I just finished a tutorial in like 1 hour... Can die... So many tutorials and lectures not on par...

Back to my room...

Am slightly late for my blogging session. I was quite busy today with the compilation of the proposal for my daddy.

Yesterday was a nice chill out with my driver, we went to the newly open Pasta Cafe @ Takashimaya. Food was okay, I have ordered Pecatore. It is actually seafood pasta with our own choice of sauces. Sweet! Chill English Breakfast to quench my thirst and a plate of fries to go along. Shan Shan had her usual Bolognise and Sky Juice.

Afterwhich we went to Heeran for our Neoprint!! Hate the stupid machine make my eyes so black and made my pictures look so Spastic!!!! I hate the stupid machine. This is the first and last time I'm goign to use that series of machine. Hurmp!!

Today, I have reposition my PC, my drawer, my chair and myself. I decided to have my back of my comp to face my Step Sister, so that she do not know what I'm doing. Then my daddy can see what I'm doing but not what I'm typing. Such a good position, have to give credit to my GF Evelyn, and Xiao P Victor.

Have finish my first round of paper works waiting for my second round of paper works to arrive. Alright, starts to rush my work again. Today have to meet up with my Kuoni Sales Manager Jessie, and some ex collegues. Its been awhile since I met up with them.

Had a very sumptious lunch @ KFC with my new colleagues - Evelyn (my gf), Victor (the tall man) and Alfred (the Battery). We even went to buy the malt candy, yum yum.

Did I mention that I have already receive my confirmation letter, now then I realise I was appointed on the 14 of July. Saw my adjusted rate and was very glad about it. Finally have survive here for 3 months, still adapting to new life here, trying to shed off my old skin. No more Rasa and can't compare and contrast the environment. Have actually make my department into my family. I have a daddy (Winnie Director of Sales), Mummy (Alicia Senior Sales Manager), Step Sister (Noodle Sales Manager) and Kaka (Sapinah Sales Manager).

Did this arragement to make me feel better, Hubby did ask mi whether do I want to go back to Rasa for another position, am very tempted thou. Its much more easy to be with the old hectic environment I use to complaint so much, but pride pull me back. Since I decided to leave the hotel, it should be much more better for Hubby and me. So I should be strong and survive myself outside.

Went home on Monday and Tuesday to jam my game of Audition. Still stuck at Level 7, damn hard, trying to gain more experience for licensing to Level 8. It should be near, I have this very strong feeling. Shit din't know how to change back my font colour. I'm so stupid!!

Listening to Creep by Lukas Rossi, like his versino better then the original altough it is shorter. What a inspirational songs, I'm educating the peep round me to listen to this genre of music. Anyway, I'm being influence by Hubby to listen to this genre as I'm more to the r&b hip hop person.

Today is the Neo Print day, meeting Shan my driver later to have a good dinner and shots of Neo Prints. Actually, I wanted to have Neo Print with Hubby as much, but he is not a person that like to take Neo Print. So jealous that he took it with Yetty before. Anyway, we did have a few photos. That should cover up for the lost of Neo print I suppose.

Sister Yu is under depression recently, din't have time to call her as I'm with my colleagues most of the time and it is quite rush for our lunch. Hope you understand babe, really pray hard that she will be ok and don't think too much. It is just so easy for us that is not in the picture to say so. That's why I don't have a very pacifying mouth to say things that someone would like to hear. I always feel that the person will be pressurize by my words and will think even more. I'm such a devil, however I'm a very good lisentner as I do not know what to say so I'll just shut up.

Alright back to work. JIA YOU!!!

Stress level is going up.
Feeling temperamental recently.

Drowning heavily under tons of tutorials and lectures.

I'm screwed big time.

Just came back from the flu vaccination, got the courage to face it cause Hubby said so. It isn't pain compare to the Hapertitis B which needs 3 jab and 1 for blood test. It is definitely nothing compare to my health check recently. However, my poor girlfriend feels the pain as it had been awhile since she took the jab.

Now need to recap some of the events which I forgot to jot down as I'm very pre-occupied with the recent huha. I realise that I forgot to praise my Hubby here for taking the effort of download songs by Lukas Rossi. ^_^ Although he wants it himself too, but still it is the effort that counts.

Evelyn just send me a description of Aquerius Woman and Peices Man. Its not very true on my side, I don't know about my Hubby. For my section, the bold one are the one that is true about me. For Hubby, he is suppose to justify it.

AQUARIUS WOMAN - If you are in love with a woman in this zodiac be prepared to be very happy or be very sorry. She is a very busy person with her own matters similar to a guy in this zodiac. She is able to live by herself without any guy in her life, a very strong person indeed.

Not because she does not have a dream guy, but if she can not find such person, so what. Because she thinks she could do anything that a man can do. She is a leader , a real confident type.

She likes to do things by herself, such as serving herself, opening the door herself. Because she thinks waiting for a helping hand is a waste of time, and she is not patient enough to wait around for that. If she starts to ask you out, do not think she starts to flirt with you, but because she thinks it is a waste of time to wait for you to be the one who asked.

She likes a COOL guy who sometime act like he is ignoring her, so he has a chance to show him his own confident. She like to guess her man's reaction, but at the same time she likes to has many men wanting her. She is a daring type who could just do thing differently from other people in her same society. She dare to fight for what she thinks belonged to her.

Even she acts confident she mostly feel lonely and alone. If she breaks up with someone , she won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and agony. Not for long she will come back to be the cheery and merry person again, because she looks at the world positively and has "Faith" in the word "Love".

She has more men friends than women friends, so do not be a jealous type if you date her. She could be slightly jealous, but she hates jealous guy. She loves "Freedom" so before and after marriage , her freedom has to be the same. She likes you to trust her, even if she does not trust you anyhow.

She likes to be the one who is "Right", so if you argue with her , let her win if it is not a big deal for you in that subject. She is a straight forward type, so if she does not love you anymore, she will just tell you straight to your face. Her love and relationship are always real, so if she say "It's over" be prepare to leave, she is not testing you.

She is not a vulnerable type, so do not have to worry about her, she will survive by herself. If she is with you when you get sick, she will certainly take care and look after you, even look after you mean "small loan". Do not have secret with her, she hates it and really can piss her badly. When she is sad , be understanding. When she is happy, be happy with her, she likes that.

You will not get bore with this type of girl. Someone who is close to her will know that deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person, she is just as fragile as any woman. She is a fun and talkative person and she likes to tease you. Do not let she talk alone, if you do she will leave.

She has many type of jobs because she beliefs what a man can do, I can do. If you want her to work for you, forget it. When she is in love, she will just leave her job in the day time just to come to see you, but not for long she will go back to work seriously again. Prepare to live and love with a "Working Woman" then you will be OK.

If she mad, find a shelter for the "Hurricane" is here! Her bad temper will last very shortly though. She is not a revenge type and will not think of "pay Back" time. Most people might think of her as "One of a guy", but in fact she is a 100% woman. She is easily hurt, so be nice with her. If she really loves you, then you are lucky because she is an honest, truthful and will never bored you. Understand that sometimes she will be over confident and sometimes like to have power or act bossy.

OMG So not true right. Let's see what Pieces man have to say.

PISCES MAN - He is very emotional and always allow himself to be very emotional. He can have a good night sleep and be in a good mood, and less than few hours at work he can be very moody. He does not understand things or try to understand things easily. If you notice him carefully, you will notice what kind of moods he is in.

He is a thinker and able to do well at work and always succeed. His normal gestures mean he always look at other people faults, but he will not talk about it. He has the ability to know your thought and able to tell you what you are thinking about.

He can mostly memorize all his anger, his loves. They are his important secrets and he will keep them to himself and will never let you know. He is not a very ambition man and careless about his position in society. Wealth does not drawn his attention, because he is not greedy man and as well he thinks money is not something that will last. He could be very careless about his future. He does not like to fight against all odds, but instead following the stream and make life easier. Sometimes because he likes to take an easy path, which cause him very unsteady future.

He is kind and slightly lazy, but it is his cute character. He hates rules and regulations. He will never look down on people. He is a polite guy and can be very aggressive when he is mad. He loves to think that he lives in a beautiful world and surround by nice people, so if he finds his world is cruel and not what he expects, he will live in his world instead.

His other charm is that he is a funny guy, and it is his real weapon. He can tease you and yet make it looks like one of his joke. Even when he is sad, he still has that funny face, so you could hardly tell if he is mad or depress. He likes to hide his feeling and help other people especially those who need friend or lonely.

He will be everything that you want and everything you do not want. He has a chance to make it as much as a chance to fail. He can determine to make it work and can do it well, except he tends to lost his energy with other important things, that's how he miss many of his good opportunity.

He can be happy and content by himself. What he think is important is not "Love" ,but firm status and stability. He has plenty of love for you.

He is a good speaker, as much as he is a good listener. When he is with you, he wants to be happy. He understand his partner's emotional. He likes to take a long rest and sometimes being alone. If he needs to be alone, try not to disturb him.

He is a sensitive, quiet , shy and easily hurt. He wants to feel worthy. He can be mad and noisy, but once he calm down, he will be that happy person again. He is not a jealous or possessive guy, and if he feels jealous he will hide it. He has many friends of both sex, and he care about his friends. He likes to have lots of friends, so you can not get jealous or else you will loose him. He likes beautiful things, so if a pretty woman walk by he will look ,so do not get mad at him knowing this fact.

When he is lonely or feeling sad, be close to comfort him. He does not like to take advice,so if you want him to listen or to follow your advice, you have to act as a good sample for him first. He likes a cheery and a smart woman. If you treat him like he is your special person, then he will be that special person for you. He will trust you if he is in love, but try not to over doing it and spoil him too much. You have to know yourself worth all the time too.

Haiz... I'm feeling so sian... Very sad.. Exams are coming = exponential decrease in weekend outings with "him". "He" rarely come to school for lecture also.

The more I think about it, the more despondent I'm feeling...

No mood to blog liao.

Missing "him".

Walk towards the office well prepared, finished my packet of Nasi Lemak with Evelyn for our breakfast. I'm well prepared with anything. Calm and steady, here we go. I never expect, I'll meet Noodle at the corridor. I'm not ready to react anything, I greeted a good morning and she smile back. Understand that she is trying to ignore the incident, thus me too.

Reach office, prepare myself to work. I love the serenity of all, she did not come pester me and we didn't talk at all. I love the way it is, slowly do my things at my pace and enjoying my music. All of the sudden, she gave me a apple. I took it generously to make her guilty, and put it aside. This seems to be the senario you found in Snow White, but I'm smarter than Snow White I throw the apple away.

It is a bizarre morning for me, it is way different from what I expect. Something is very wrong, its either she realise that she misunderstand herself, or somehow someone told her something. Still under vigilence, will post in more updates if found suspicious.

Hubby is vegetarian for a day today. Have to do this for his dad, well more information will not to feed. Today is a bad day for him and Sun, they are suppose to work early @ 7am. However they can't find a taxi, and have to result in calling a cab. Sometimes I do feel that taxi driver did it on purpose, they will enjoy their nice breakfast and only pick up oncalls passengers. Aiyo, need to earn money no need to be so calculative right, if not the money wont roll in.

Hubby are having picnic as well, joint department of Housekeeping and Front Office. The Picnic is host to celebrate Mr Chua's birthday as well. Heard from Hubby, Mr Chua seems to be my rival. Nah I do believe that I have the charisma to charm my Hubby. Isn't it so? Opps, blog too long down to work. Adious Amigoes!!!

Right, everyone should be shock that I don't relate the story about yesterday right? Now I'm feeling fine so I think I can relate the story with real details.

Winnie (Director of Sales), have actually want all the sales managers to prepare a proposal for the renewal of contract for next year. She have actually ask me to do up a template for everyone. So I did and after some amendment from her, we send it out. Afterwhich I need to compile and send back to Winnie.

The main lead which is the devil in the story is Instant Noodle (Maggie). She can't finish her proposal on friday so she actually want me to draft out the skeleton so that she can continue when she came back from sales call. I feel that since I can finish my work on hand early why not help her, her deadline is one day short from other sales managers as we are on different saturday duty.

The issue is very minor which is being magnify by her. The topic of the arguement = effective date. Initially when I did the propsal for her, i wrote the wrong effective date. It should be the date when the company starts enjoying our 06 contract rate, but I insert the estbalish date of the account. When Noodle highlight this, I realise she is right so I told her I'll amend for her, but she wants me to clarify with Winnie to play safe. When clarify with Winnie, I came out and help her do the amendments. The 2nd email is send to her, she continue doing and I leave the office at 6. Before I left the office we already have a small arguement as she don't understand what I'm explaining, I did my explanation in english and chinese but to no avail. She is really **** , and she keep making mi believe on her assumption which is totally wrong.

Noodle is actually one stuck up spoil brat that I have ever met, I already don't have good impression of her from the beginning cause she makes people feel that she is the princess in the company, as she is the longest in the company aside from Alicia. Her English is atrocious as well, this explain why she can't understand my email and my sms. How she send her mail?? Through thick dictionary, Sapinah and Lynette.

Saturday is the day of the eruption. Saw her mail, and she is still talking about establish dates which is way long before, I'm not very happy that she don't feel gratitute. She don't even listen to what I say the previous day to her that's why she is still stuck in the topic of estblish dates. I thought should send a sms to ease her worries and stop the issue as it is so pointless. After awhile, she send a very sarcastic msg asking me to use the system wisely. My pressure went up and send back a msg saying that I have clarify with Winnie and explain to you yesterday as well.

Phone rang and it was Noodle. She called to "clarify" the issue with me, but underline she is trying to pinpoint me. No matter what I explain to her, she will find some spots like then you also do wrongly what if you say its this. I'm 100% sure I'm right and after the phone call I even print out my evidence for my Monday war if she declare. Main parts that she push my pressure up is the ... "cause of you I work til 7 Plus you know anot"... "cannot put down the phone, I wake up just to talk to you after that i'm going to sleep"...

Conclusion of all, I'm not that petty to argue with a spoiled brat about minor issue, and you definitely not worth to argue with me. Ultimately, Noodle is on my black list, she is only visible to me when down to work. Lazy people not worth my help, I really dispites you with all my might. Seriously speaking 3 year old kid is more matured than you, maybe you can consider growing up.

After this incident, my vision is more clear about who is by my side and who is the one that I should look out for. Let's talk about the angels to beautify my current entry.

Mummy and Sapinah, came to my rescue and let me understand more about Noodle. It seems like everyone enjoy abit of her nastiness. Mummy is so protective that I'm really very touch.

Sylvia and Ivory, they are the supporting role. They are very supportive of me declaring war on Monday if the drama continue.

Complaint to Ms Adeo online, both of us like crazy biatches scolding Noodles. I'm not going to have instant Noodle, or noodle that are curlly!! Ha!

Sister Yu, came to my rescue of accompanying me for my kfc. Main motive is not KFC, main motive is to complaint to you.

They have all shower me with lots and lots of love and concern and I can really feel it. They are the reasons that I calm down and see the picture.

Emily mum, she called me, miscall, and she is very worried at the time she can't talk to me as she is busy.

Hubby called after his work. Have made him worried alot, he is very work up by the whole incident, and I have to comfort him ultimately. Hubby did nagg me awhile, but it warm me all of the sudden. He really care about me alot and I know I really made him worried alot alot. Promise him that I'll be more brave, I hope I can. With his love, I think I can do it.

Told my mum about the incident after I put down the phone with Hubby. She also comfort with the parts and pieces of life. Daddy thought I quarrell with Hubby, he did came down to talk about rough life ahead of me.

Emily mum called back, waiting for her order at Swensen with her baby Naveen. Told her the incident and told her about Hubby's conversation. It is so sensational that his words are so overwhealming. I'm very touch that he is so work up although it is not right, I'm very touch that he feel bad that he is not by my side. I'm very very touch that he wanted to help me solve the issue. Emily Mum and Dad are very worried as well.

It seems that working out here is not that easy, devils come to show me light to the angels. Indirectly, devils are my savours to see who I should turn to. I know I'm not alone, I have everyone and I'm definitely fortunate to have my colleagues pampering me, my close friends coming to rescue me, my love one to embrace me. I'm not complaining with everything, I'm being bless with everyone by my side.

Met Hubby today, after yesterday's incident, I have the strong urge to see him so much. Uncle drove mi to his place, spend quality time together. I never thought I'll be very bless with his love. It is so bless that it feel so unreal. I'm always afraid that he will disappear suddenly like what Azman did to me, but times prove me wrong. He is my precious that I must treasure. I always feel that finding someone that love you as much as you love him is very difficult. However, I found it. Have been together for half a year going to be 7 months, I can see you go [wah! time pass so fast!]. Still a long long way to go, many many boundaries for us to go through. Hope we will be going thru thin and think hand in hand. *Yawn* sleeping time, Nite guys, Sweet dreams angel.

We finally hanged out at the beach. After constant weeks of quizzes. Had relaxing day together.

Typing through tears to be honest. I'm too angry to keep my emotional in kept. Seriously, I'm too angry to relate everything, but I just want to let out my anger. Just to let her know that, if you are so free to find my spots, then start doing things yourself. Now I realise that who I should really look out for helping you in return I earn a scolding, anger, and misunderstanding. Then sorry I'm really incapable of doing anything.

Saw my sis yu online, will meet her for kfc to cease my anger. Right back down to work. Bloody bitch!!

Didn't went out yesterday, went home striaght to play AUdition. Have you download the game?Sis Sandra I think you can download and play with me since you are going to be free after your exam. Have already got my license for Novice Level. Now, I'm a level 6 Novice Dancer. It is just so cool, to see how they dance.

Alright stop dreaming, Hubby just inform me yesterday that he will be going back home on the 31 October to see Mummy. So nice, finally he is going back after so so so so long. Think his mum will be so so so so surprise he put on weight. Heez.
On the other hand, I'm quite worried that I'll miss him alot alot for that 2 weeks. If its one week I'm still fine. So i decided to fill up my 2 weeks with alot alot of activities.So all my sister have to be careful. Haha.

My checkup result is out. What you expect, of course its normal. See no need to spend my 50bucks away. Today will be a short entry. Dint have much to write, except for missing hubby and missing hubby and missing hubby only.

I'm home from dinner. With a friend, Edmund Tan Gay Siong, whom I've not met up for 10 years! hahahaha... yeah... my primary school friend.

His workplace is so near to my home! Just 10 mins walk! I told him, free come up to my house clean my room. >.<

We went to Suntec City for dinner. There I saw Kwang Chek. What a buddy lor! No time to eat with me but got time for his Crystal Jade La Mian! #$*#@_$#

We headed to Gelare for drinks after dinner. We just sat there to chat, enjoying each other's company. 10 years of stuffs to catch up. But time was passing fast and it was 10pm. He sent me home after that.

Though we didn't spend much time together, but we promised to meet up often and call each other frequently. 10 years and we still are as close as how we were before in primary school.

In addition, my sister Ling has 5% increment. Another happy occasion for I'll be getting another treat from her. ^_^

Went Movie at the end of my work, watch Rob-B-Hood at Tiong Bahru Plaza. Hubby went dinner with Sun, Cynthia, Naveen and Moli.Realize that I miss them alot, I'm too use to Rasa life that I don't enjoy my work here at all. I always listen stories from Sun, Chicken and Hubby, and I always feel that how I wish I was there. There's no time to regret, I need to live with it sooner I hope I'll blend into this environment.

Recently, I'm very close with Evelyn. She is my motivation to continue work here in the Hotel. She had a mix of Sun and Julie and Ade when she's angry. Talk to her alot, we both miss our life at Front Desk. Office job are really very boring. Humans are like that, always not satisfy with what they have. I'm trying and I'm learning.

Told Evelyn that I've the watched the movie before, and she nearly strangle me in the theatre. Lucky I dint tell her before hand if not I think she will tear away the ticket. See very Adeline right.

Today suppose to wake Hubby up at 11.30 but he woke up early so I just give it a miss. Yesterday I forgotten to wake him up, so guilty but he understands.He should be having his break real soon any moment heez.

Just finish my appraisal, My director is very please with me and gave me 5% increment. So excited wanted to inform my hubby now but he is already at work.Actually my director trust me alot, I can feel, she is very flexible on things as well. Its not as bad as what the rest have said her to be. I believe I'm the only one that can really understand her, I don't think the rest are true in being with her. So lonely right, I'm the angel. ^_^

Today will be the day for me to Level up my avatar, I still need 1 more level to enter Novice and today will be the big day for me. I'm so crazy about the game that I thought I should install in Hubby's computer so that he can play his Xbox and I can complete my level.

Suppose to meet ade and gang for clubbing, as I mention in the previous blog, I can't make it. After my director spoken to me, I feel that I must really be responsible in my work. Although I mention that I miss Rasa, but I realise that here treasure my value so I should really buck up and work so more calls more reservations, I'll make sure all the occupancy is 80% and above.

Today is a hectic day for me. Din't realise I've not blog for today til my dearest Miss Ong reminded me to blog.

Its a mad house in the morning, rushing contract and doing up template for the proposal of new contract. Feel very guilty that I have to reject Ms Ong for the clubbing night on Thursday, have spoil her day some how. Poor girl miss me so much but don't dare to admit.

Yesterday, met up with Peishan and Baozhu. We are planing to have bowling session but the bowling lane is full, thus we end up in KTV. Serve Lynn right man, uses all my might to sing and reach the high notes. I've died yesterday, now i revive with a somewhat "better" voice.

My boss had invited 3 monks here for prayers to bless the hotel, and also bless us. Took the oppotunity to be bless and hope the bless I achieve can influence my close one, especially Ms Yanny. She's having her exam soon hope she really fly with her marks if not I think she will fly from her building.

Had a weird call just now, a guy call up to look for a girl. Apparently, he have call the wrong number, but he do not seems to realise. Since I'm so stress he is been blast by me. Poor him but I'm not guilty. Think Hubby will give him one punch cause he is quite stress as well.

Today will end with a Movie Rush with Evelyn and Sylvia. Movie to watch Rob B Hood. Yes have watch it with Ying Ying and Sun but cause I've agree to watch with Evelyn for along time its not right to tell her I've watch it. Evelyn if you are reading this, please pardon me for my white lie.

Time to submit my blog to Ms Adeline Ong Jia Yi to vet through.

Today was sure helluva day for me. Overslept thus being late for class. Met Ling's mother on my RUSH to the train station. Didn't have time to talk to her for awhile. Feel so bad.

Had EE3002, 8086 Microprocessor quiz today. Argghhh!!! Talking about that quiz makes my blood boil. I could have gotten full marks! If it wasn't my carelessness!!!

Q: What's the size of 8086 segment?
My answer: 16-bit
Correct answer: 64KB

WHAT THE SHIT!!! (2^16)/1024 = 64KB!!! Why didn't I write 64KB!?!?!?!? My perfect scoree!!!! #$&#@Q(&#_$(&@#

Received tons of birthday messages from friends. They surprised me. Thought they have forgotten. Coz I nearly forgotten my own birthday. Went to school with the mobile phone charged fully, but by 2.30pm, the mobile went flat. =.=''' too much messages. *I'm not complaining*

As my mobile was flat, "he" was unable to contact me. Luckily Raymond was with me. We attend lectures together. "He" had to call Raymond to get over the phone. "He" told me "he" was coming over to pick me up after school. Couldn't really concentrate on the lecturer after we hung up. The thought of meeting "him" later kept my heart pounding. But I'd to listen for dear Raymond couldn't understand a single SHIT about what the China lecturer was mumbling. Raymond depends on me. I'd to understand by hook or by crook.

Lecture ended. "He" really came to pick me up. The 3 of us walked over to "his" car. "He" was walking first, followed by me and Raymond. Then "he" opened the door and presented me a bouquet of lilies. AND RAYMOND WAS STANDING BEHIND ME LOOKING AND GRINNING!

"He" really caught me unaware. I wasn't even thinking of receiving any presents from "him". Only the thought of seeing "him" was imprinted in my brain.

"He" gave Raymond a lift to Boon Lay station, then we headed home. On the way home, "he" gave me another present. This time it was a wallet. I'm in need of a wallet. That's what made me fall for him. "His" observance. =)

Though we didn't celebrate my birthday and our 1st month as "he" had a quiz tomorrow, I'm happy no doubt about all the events that "he" made them right at the end of the day.

I'm so looking forward to saturday evening, for we'll finally be spending time alone. The quizzes are already over for me today, but for "him", "his" last quiz will be on next saturday. This coming saturday will be quality time for us.

I'm glad that I'm celebrating my birthday with my family. I realised that when I'm with "him", my relationship with my family are no longer strained. I am so much closer to my family than before, compared to my past relationships. "He" understands that I want, need to spend time with my family, friends, my studies and myself. Yet also, we manage to find time for each other. Both of us are librians - always searching for a balanced life. The more I think about us, the more I feel that we're really compatible and meant for each other. "He" understands me, and I do too. In studies, as friends, as lovers.

Really contented to spend my special day with my family, and saturday with him. Gonna meet up with my god-bro for dinner as he's gonna treat me a birthday meal. My buddy, Kwang Chek and another of my friend Paul owe me a present each. Hahahaha... But right now, the my room is smells of lilies - my favourite flower...

Did i mention about Audition?? Its such a cool game. Please if you are free and have no aim in life. Do try it. www.auditionsea.com This is my main aim now, everyday rush home to up my level. Currently at level 5 after 2 days.

Seriously speaking I'm very proud of myself. Still a Stiffy, but one more level I'll be Novice and hitting the floor with the finish move. It is actually a dance battle kind of thing. Orignate from Korea so the songs are all Korean, it is only some remix that they have other songs in is that we may find farmiliar, but what fascinate is the dance move. The avatar can really dance if you complete a set of command.

Its so cool, now my bond with my brother improve so much cause of this game. I'll introduce hubby and my close friend to play. My brother and I are so close that we nearly strangle each other. *Cough Cough*

Oh my god, still sick. Been coughing so badly that I have tears rolling out. This is bad, but medical is even worse. I'll recover with KFC heez. Alright short entry can't write cause missing Hubby. Tataz...

Finally have time to blog awhile... Today is a boring day... Ade is not here to accompany for the day... Oh ya, promise Ade that I'll blog about my friends. Think this is the time to do it.

Hmmm... How to start I really have no idea, am listening to Jay's Ting Ma Ma De Hua. I'm down with a very deadly disease, flu and cough... and cos of the stupid coughing i'm having a irritating sore throat. Who shall I pick for my first angel? Let the closest do the Talking...

Rohit Ghale, 24, Male, Nepalease. Spoted in Rasa Sentosa, Initial Impression, He is bullying Emily Lim. After awhile impression, he don't know how to speaks Mandarin. Now Impression, I love him alot. Right on, he is my hubby. Hmm... Dun question about how we got together, Its a mix of everything. Its just bizarrely happen. However its the greatest things ever happen. Thank you for being there. Alright this will be a quick one too shy to blabber on... NEXT!!!

Julie Tan Pei Yan, 21, Female, Local Aunty. Spoted in Henderson Primary School. Lost and found in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. She is one hell of a innocent aunty. Knows alot in life but dun follows. Have her own set of thinking. My greatest sister ever. Best thing to do with her Slumper Sleepover Mahjong Event... Was attracted to her cause of SCV. am still hanging out with her cause of her care. She is my blubbelicious baby.

Ng Pei Shan, 22, Female, Local Driver. Spoted in Henderson Primary School. She is the one who i am with all my life. In pri sch, sec sch, poly. Even when we are working now, we do meet everyday. We even wanted to learn Tennis together. Wait for us to be the best tag team in Singapore. Best thing to do with her, waiting for her at her void deck to go out, esp for suctec before our concert at Victoria Hall. Love her for her cool attitude, her friends comes first theory and her consideration.

Sandra Chan Rou Yu, 22, Female, Local Opposition. Spoted in Outram Secondary School. Skinny, strong gal who always eat alot. She is one cool babe who do the opposite of wat u want her to do except for studying. Ha. Too determine too stubborn Too much essence of everything. My Another blood sister the another half owner of this blog. Attached to her cos of jealousy i just want that figure ^_^. Best thing to do with her mugging exams at her kitchen with the radio blasting!! She is one lady you can;t miss she can give u the greatest advice but she just dun follow. Why? cos she is the opposition. HAHA I love you mei mei.

Serene Tan Xue Ling, 22, Female, Local Mysterer. Spoted in Outam Secondary School. She is a gal who have a sense of dressing. nice figure. innocent mind set. Pretty face and cherry character. I love to hang out with her cos she is always so casual. She always so Aiya anithing. You just want to be so carefree like her sometimes. Love to debate on our thinking. Best thing to do celebrate our birthday together. Although she always missing in action, but she always reappear every year on our birthday. Although we dun meet often, but we are mentally bonded.

Joleen Ong Yu Ling, 22, Female, Local Parang Sales Executive. Spoted in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. One cool ah lian who brings foldable parang whenever she goes. Attached to her cause of security. Level headed business woman. Best thing to do with her, Rushing our project overnight at Julie's house. Midnight Maggie Mee Rox!! Love her for her mildness, level headed, bargaining skill. She's a VIP who only comes out when big event is on, but i just love her ^_^

Melissa, 22, Female, Local Blander. Spoted in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. She is the same species of me. Love her for being me. She is a cartoon, careless, forgetful, adbsent minded. She is so fun loving, friendly, lovably. BEst thing to do with her, last min clubbing at anywhere and hugging each other to dance ^_^.

Adeline Ong, 21, Female, Local Giraffe. Spoted in HR office Rasa Sentosa. One cool gal with a big red specs. If I am a cartoon, she is a looney tune. I dun know why my life is curse of meeting all the cartoon looney tune and disney fellows. Best thing to do with her, running and sun tanning at Siloso at the end of our shift. Love her to be so concentrating that she will go gaga over small things. Love her for giving so much for something she is determine. Love her for being so Goofy. Ong sista rulez!!!

Naveen Nicholas Edwards, 23, Male, Indian Caucasian. Spoted in Rasa Sentosa. He is my daddy. attached to him cos he is after Adeline!! Admit it your true love is Adeline. Ha, but he is happy in love with Emily Ng. So have to congrats them, Adeline u are safe. He is one cocky fellow I have ever met. Best thing to do with him, sit down and enjoy the scence of Adeline and him quarrelling. That's entertaining. Too bad it wont happen again. Cos the proud giraffe just XXX opps... talk to much... NEXT!!!

Bae Sun Jung, 22, Korean Penguine. Spoted in Rasa Sentosa. She is my first true love before meeting Hubby. Best thing to do with her rushing for morning queue at the counter and running our usual smooth afternoon shift together. Love her for having the same chemistry with me. We have the best teamwork bond. Nothing impossible is impossible for us when we are together. We can think better. Although now she starts to be fierce but she will always be the best mummy bear ever.

Ma Ying Ying, 21, Local Vampire Catcher. Spoted in Rasa Sentosa. One small kid that i met in the nursery playing with reg card. Best thing to do with her, running afternoon together with my partner on MC. She is fast easy and initiative. Dote her alot cos she is flexible in many ways just like her ah gong. heez. build a happy family cos of her. She just brighten our days with the goofy answer and action. See how many times have i repeat the word goofy, i realise all my friends are goofy.

There is still alot and alot and alot... but i'm very tired. Spending an hour to describe so little peep. Am tired. oh my brother just introduce me to Audition. Damn fun. For peep who are interested to know wat it is you can view there, www.auditionsea.com it is so fun we can battle it out everyday. Oh Hubby brought me to Vivo City as well, its so crowded, but definitely a shopping heaven. 1st December i need to whine my hubby to bring me there again. Alright folks gotta go.